I have about 9,000 things on my mind right about now. My heart is going 90 miles a minute, I'm shaking, I'm in tears about every five minutes. Oh yeah and the girl in the pink shirt next to me keeps moving further away. She thinks I'm nuts.
Well I may have just done the most stupidest thing, well the second most stupidest thing. I keep hurting the person I love. I think that I have to let him go to realize how much I love him. When you find someone who will sacrifice anything for you, who takes buses, goes to college, and makes all his decisions around you, that should be it, right? No questions just answers. This is the person who makes my life better who wants nothing but the best for me. I want nothing but the best for him. After 6 long months of bickering I felt weathered, exhausted, lost, and confused. Why did I keep it all in? Why did I let it go? I feel like I lost my voice along the way, I kept punishing myself for the better decisions I should have made, the things I should have said. I told him I love him and I took it back. He made me feel everything, I was crazy, everything I do reminds me of him. He was willing to fight for us and I just rolled over and gave up? I'm not a quitter. I don't do that, I don't quit on people. I made a promise and I didn't keep it. What kind of person does that? I can't keep letting my own fears get in my way. I'm on my way to Maine.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
HOLY BLOG!
I've managed to do a lot of insane crazy things...
Most notable might be riding in a car next to a rhino (observe rhino) oh and seeing an ostrich do an extremely strange dance on the ground.
Look for more posts...eventually...because right now I am poor and have no internet THAT'S right I also moved to New Hampshire.
Don't know too much about the granite state..youtube granite state of mind it's hilarious.
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